Me with My Simple Heart

Whenever something funny or great thing happened, i wanna tell you..........

But,

“I ain’t missing you !”

"I ain’t missing you !"

"I ain’t missing you at all !"

"I keep lying to myself………I ain't missing you at all!!!!!!"

"But......in the deep deep down inside my heart,

.......Truly,

.......Madly,

.......Deeply,

"I just want to say louder that I"m missing you so much!!!!!!!!!"

And now i stayed cause i'm tired.....cause this pain won't go away.....

That's how it feels.....

Since you're gone
There is an empty space
Since you're gone
The world is not the same

I go back to the places we've been
It feels like you're still there
I live all those moments again
Wishing you were here

Since you're gone
There is an lonely heart
Since you're gone
Nothing is like it was

There are memories all over the place
Bringin it back all so clear
Remember all of those days
Wishing you were here

All those lonely nights
I gotta fight for you, yes I do
Yes I do

Since you're gone
There is a heart that bleeds
Since you're gone
I'm not the man I used to be

I follow you steps in the snow
The traces disappear
We know what we've lost when it's gone
I'm wishing you were here

All those lonely nights
I gotta fight for you, yes I do
Yes I do

Music :rudolf schenker
Lyrics :klaus meine

Tiga puluh menit menuju pintu ke dunia luar................ tapi sesampainya di menit ke tiga puluh, kemana yah kaki ini harus melangkah?

Arghhhh..... ada apa dengan Fella hari ini?

Ingin sekali rasanya kulempar semua benda yang ada di atas meja kerjaku ke muka orang-orang yang kuanggap menyebalkan seharian ini, dan apabila diandaikan dengan metodologi sebuah RUDAL dengan target "orang-orang yang menyebalkan yang kusebut di awal", maka aku yakin semua benda itu akan kembali mengarah padaku sebagai target, karena hari ini aku mengakui dengan kesadaran yang penuh bahwa akulah orang yang paling menyebalkan hari ini.

Hmm.... three minutes to go.... just want to go from here to..........

Have you ever been in the situation that there were no one arround you and you didn't talk to anybody or made a conversation with others?

I did it for two days, only me, my self and i stayed in my room and spent the days with reading a book, blogging through my laptop and also listening my favourite songs.

I found that it was very hard not talking for a whole day, because i realize that i am really really talkative person, but i felt that it is a good thing for me, i could feel my emptiness.

I know there is something missing in my lives, but i don't know what it is. I often believed that getting into a relationship with another human will fullfill that void, but often i'm wrong. I usually look for material gain and all physical things i can grab on, yet loneliness and fear still creep in my minds. I seek friendship, peers for popularity and acceptance, yet i often get frustrated.

The first problem is i'm too self centered. I always seek the things that can fullfill my needs and not what i can share to others.

And secondly, i lost my faith to God and i doubt Him because of my stupid thing that He never exist for me in my bad circumtances.

Pfuuuhh.....that was the biggest mistake!!!!!!

I have to take a moment to step back and i have to think that i do believe in Him, maybe i don't understand things that i've been facing, but what seems like a curse now may actually be building blocks and stepping stones for something much greater later on in my life. I should trust God to give me what is best for me and that He will give it in its proper time.

I just said, "Lord, this is what I need and this is what I want but It's in your hands. So, I surrender and I will keep my hand out of it. I am willing to trust You always and I know that You never let me down"

There's a face in the mirror and you close your eyes;

I got this following article from "Blog Walking" activity a few minute ago.....
After read it, i though this was so damn good article and i decided to keep it for my self who will be going to "30" ...... hahaha...

This is for all you girls 30 years and over and for those who areturning 30, and for those who are scared of moving into their 30's. AND for guys who are scared of girls over 30!

This was written by Andy Rooney from CBS 60 Minutes.

Andy Rooney says:
"As I grow in age, I value women who are over 30 most of all. Here are just a few reasons why?"

A woman over 30 will never wake you in the middle of the night to ask, "What are you thinking?" She doesn't care what you think. If a woman over 30 doesn't want to watch the game, she doesn't sit around whining about it! She does something she wants to do. And, it's usually something more interesting.

A woman over 30 knows herself well enough to be assured in who she is, what she is, what she wants and from whom. Few women past the age of 30 give a damn what you might think about her or what she's doing. Women over 30 are dignified. They seldom have a screaming match with you at the opera or in the middle of an expensive restaurant. Of course, if you deserve it, they won't hesitate to shoot you, if they think they can get away with it. Older women are generous with praise, often undeserved. They know what it's like to be unappreciated.

A woman over 30 has the self-assurance to introduce you to her women friends. A younger woman with a man will often ignore even her best friend because she doesn't trust the guy with other women. Women over 30 couldn't care less if you're attracted to her friends because she knows her friends won't betray her.

Women get psychic as they age. You never have to confess your sins to a woman over 30. They always know. A woman over 30 looks good wearing bright red lipstick. This is not true of younger women. Once you get past a wrinkle or two, a woman over 30 is far sexier than her younger counterpart.

Older women are forthright and honest. They'll tell you right off if you are a jerk if you are acting like one! You don't ever have to wonder where you stand with her. Yes, we praise women over 30 for a multitude of reasons. Unfortunately, it's not reciprocal. For every stunning, smart, well-coiffed hot woman of 30+, there is a bald, paunchy relic in yellow pants making a fool of himself with some 22-year-old waitress.

Ladies, I apologize. For all those men who say, "Why buy the cow when you can get the milk for free".

Here's an update for you....
Nowadays 80% of women are against marriage, why? Because women realize it's not worth buying an entire PIG, just to get a little sausage.

Well ... well ... am I glad being 30 something year old woman? I'll say it out loud, I AM!!!!